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Currently Playing Once Upon a Shattered Life By Seventh Day Slumber see related

life has been really hard lately..

but things are finally looking up.

i am not perfect, and neither is anyone else.

people will always let you down.

i am learning.

to put all i have in Him.

when you completely rely on Him for your joy and strength

you will not cannot be let down by people of this world.

healing is a process.

i am growing.

this weekend was amazing, thank You Lord.

my faith is increasing.

i will not forget you.

i am maturing.

i am looking forward to the future.

when you lose something you love

faith takes over.

i can only imagine.

i earnestly wait what is to come.

i am forming new relationships.

i am strengthening old ones.

hallelujah.

in my heart, you will always be.

i am trying.

i am drawing near.

i have dreams.

it is GOOD.

you have to serve someone, you're either serving the Lord or serving the enemy, which is it?

mmm yay for random thoughts

Currently Playing Savage Garden By Savage Garden see related

- Truly, Madly, Deeply - -

my body hurts all over  ugh is it cuz of working out? that would be awesome! lol..

so um a lot was on my mind tonight.. and yeah so i spilled it out here for all yall.. lol fill free to read.. or dont. what does it matter haha

so um yeah in a rele WiErD mood... ugh i hate that type how bout *wierd mood. yeah i feel like im on like this quest for self discovery almost. anyone ever been there? im just so confused about soo many things. like right now especially.. i have all these thoughts and emotions ans feelings like streaming through my body and its unsettling. i dont like it much. like for instance what am i suppose to do.. like in life?! what does God want me to do.. in the long run? or even in the short run.. like in certain situations and decisions i like dotn konw what to do! i want to change. but im not sure exactly whati want to chagne. my friends? my priorities? my mindset? and how would i begin to change this stuff?  i definitely have been changing.. and its been for the good.. most of it i think. and theres so much stuff i just wanna let go and move on but i like dont know how or exactly what im stuppsoe to let go of [no im not talkn bout a guy.. lol thats a diff story] sheesh im just filled to the top with thoughts and useless ambitions. all i can do is pray that God gives me a clear mind.. a straight path to follow.. full understanding.. and guidance.. and strengh.. and you know all that good stuff lol. ive been growing so much lately and its been like rele awesome you know.. hes even called me to reach out to some ppl.. which is realllly cool bc im usually the person gettin ministered too.. hardly ever do i get a chance to guide someone else! and its been like more than one person.. that was really cool if i do say so myself. but im not done with them. i just pray God opens their heart to Him.. and that the words He speaks to them sink in and the words He speaks to them through me.. i just so desperately want people to SEE  and to LISTEN  to what God is saying to them. i pray i dont get discouraged.. bc it is very discouraging.. yeah but the Lord is awesome and He works miracles.. i pray He does in these cases.. bc time is running short..

yeah ok long shpeal.. lol mmmm havent rele wrote anything that deep in a long time.. most my entries are gay stuff bout school.. work.. pals.. blah blah

sorry if that was like depressing or something i dunno.. i hope it was encouraging! if possible.. i just hope all of you really THINK about what is TRULY important in this life.. and act on that NOW.. were not promised tomorrow

thanks for listening

and of course.. poetry..

Lost and then found oh I know you’re around,
I can't help but to look in the clouds,
If I had to guess as to where you would be,
it's looking out on over me,
I never thought that moment would come
when I'd have to look out my window alone,
now I'm watching the stars and still hoping to see
the day when you will come back to me.

[amazing song.. wanna know more about me.. look up the song and the rest of the lyrics... ]

Currently Playing:  Blink 182 -- "Here's Your Letter"

i really need to stop chewing on my nails..  nervous habit?  i uno..

so.. school is positively killing me! i am SO swamped with work.. and SO unmotivated.. sheesh i need to get it together..
like as of right now i DEF should be tackling all the reading i need to do for ap us h. but eh.. not very appealing lol

well i know that everyone was dying to know that East did advance in uil one acts! they have such an awesome show this year! break a leg guys! it was super sweet hangin with the plano sr high ppl tho.. all them bloody british ppl! haha i seriously thought they were all british.. silly me. they're so nice tho! they had a really good show as well.. wish they woulda advanced.. luv u guys. good times

Powder Puff game was soooo much fun!! Go '06! yeah baby.. thats right juniors beat the seniors 26-16... first time.. in like forever.. what what. i like football. its fun  tho its kinda scurry.. i seemed to always have the big girls on me  and my knees are skinned up eww ha listen to me im such a girl

i tried out for pals yesterday.. eeek!! i really wanna make it! gah.. but the competition is fierce.. so im trying not to get my hopes up.. bc odds are i wont make it but.. i still want to lol

mmm havent like worked at all in the past two weeks.. brooke's gonna be muy poor!! seriously last check i had bout 40 hrs.. this one i got a whopping 15!! go me.. lol its cuz i keep giving my shifts away.. everyone wants em.. somtimes i think im too nice hehe

hmm only 5 mas weeks left!! i am so ready for summer.. like oh my gosh. i dont know what im gonna do with all that free time tho.. i actually think ill go crazy.. i mean ill me alone with my thoughts.. just thinkin.. i cant do that now.

im actually very relieved im so busy.. gets my mind off things. which is good in my case.. real good.

love the sunshine.. specially on a hot day.. gettin tan baby yeayuh

this song is so flippin awesome.. Jesus is incredible.. 
Kutless--

Why do you run? why do you hide?
Oh dont you know I just want..
I just want to be with you.
Looking down from above as you watch tv..
Wondering why..
Your ignoring me
Do you remember..
Remember when I came to you?
And you loved me.
And I'm waiting for you
And I'm waiting for you..

Why do you run? why do you hide?
Dont you know I just want to be with you?

Whatever happened to the love
The love you had for me
When you first came to me
And dont you know that I died..
I died.. so I could be with you.. forever
And I'm waitng for you...
And I'm waiting for you.

Why do you run? why do you hide?
Dont you know I just want to be with you?

Find a place of solitude
And I'll speak to you..
As you pray to me
Don't yoiu know I'm waiting here
Waiting for you to read
And here my words
I'm waiting here and missing the times we shared..
Just come to me..

why do you run..

ill never stop being your friend even if it seems like it.. 

easter is an amazing holiday.. do yall really fathom how powerful a day like today is?! its the resurrection of our Lord and Savior.. who is so incredible! through his death we can truely live.. but the awesome thing is he didnt die.. he lives and he lives in us. its amazing. what a wonderful day..

gee i am so busy lately.. too much stuff to do! but im not that stressed out.. yet. haha i def should stay home more and get work done.. i play too much.. more work less play.. mhmm

taking back sunday is my new favorite band  theyre flippin awesome

i get to miss two days of school this week.. havent decided if itts a good thing or not.. i hate gettin behind but missin school.. heck yes! im hosting plano senior high at the one act competition at east.. hopefully itll be fun.. they better be cool haha

i saw my daddy yesterday.. i love him hes awesome

i like to draw.. i wish i could do it more.. maybe even like take a class or sumthing..? that'd be cool.. brooke the artist [accent on the i] lol has a nice ring to it

sigh.. i want more..